其实

有时候，莫名的心情不好，不想和任何人说话，只想一个人静静的发呆。­

有时候，突然觉得心情烦躁，看什么都觉得不舒服，心里闷的发慌，拼命想寻找一个出口。­

有时候，发现身边的人都不了解自己，面对着身边的人，突然觉得说不出话。­

有时候，感觉自己与世界格格不入，曾经一直坚持的东西一夜间面目全非。­

有时候，突然很想逃离现在的生活，想不顾一切收拾自己简单的行李去流浪。­

有时候，别人突然对你说，我觉得你变了，然后自己开始百感交集。­

有时候，希望时间为自己停下，做完己还没来得及做的事情。­

有时候，想一个人躲起来脆弱，不愿别人看到自己的伤口。­

有时候，突然很想哭，却难过的哭不出来。­

有时候，夜深人静，突然觉得不是睡不着，而是固执地不想睡。­

有时候，走过熟悉的街角，看到熟悉的背影，突然就想起一个人的脸。­

有时候，明明自己心里有很多话要说，却不知道怎样表达。­

有时候，觉得自己拥有着整个世界，一瞬间却又觉得自己其实一无所有。­

真的只是有时候，明明自己身边很多朋友，却依然觉得孤单。­

有时候，很想放纵自己，希望自己痛痛快快歇斯底里地发一次疯。­

有时候，突然找不到自己，把自己丢的无影无踪。­

有时候，心里突然冒出一种厌倦的情绪，觉得自己很累很累。­

有时候，看不到自己未来的样子，迷茫的不知所措。­

有时候，发现自己一夜之间长大了。­

有时候，听到一首歌，就会突然想起一个人。­

有时候，希望能找个人好好疼爱自己，渴望一种安全感。可当那个可以疼你的人出现的时候，你却偏执地退隐。­

有时候，别人误解了自己有口无心的一句话，心里郁闷的发慌。­

有时候，被别人伤害，嘴上讲没事，其实心里难过的要死。­

有时候，常常在回忆里挣扎，有很多过去无法释怀。­

有时候，很容易感动别人的关怀，有时候却麻木地像个笨蛋。­

有时候，看着时间一点点流逝，任凭叹息，自己却无能为力。­

 

其实，有时候，真的会想这么多。。。 ­

丢了的自己，要记得捡回来…

 

PS: copied from Facebook but I found that it's nice ..

离开

It's the last night I am staying in my own house, the last night I am lying on my own bed with my comfy pillow and Bubu..
This will be the last night I am staying here in my own room on my own bed until the next time I am back again.. Wondering when will be my next trip back.. Been planned to work over Melbourne for my industrial training and for that I renew my passport 1 and half year earlier which make me lost the a year of valid period.. Heard from others that they will extend the passport valid period and not that start it with the date you renew it but what I got is the later one.. After calculation, lost RM60 for that as the fees are RM300 for 5 years valid period.. Oh no! It will be wasted if I am coming back end of the year or next year..

Anyway, back to the topic, feeling quite down tonight as not really feeling want to go back Melbourne, it will be a hard time there again and I really love the feeling to stay at home with family, with my parents.. Used to feel sad when going back is cause of the other half partner but nowadays, I am feeling sad to leave due to leaving my parents back in Sibu and will be apart from them for such a long time, most probably will be 2 years time except they are going to visit us there..
Mum are going to be alone back here as dad always travelling nowadays..

Mum ! Dad ! Thanks for everything that you gave me all this while especially when I am back in Sibu. The love, the care you all gave me I am really appreciate it! Thanks Mum ! Thanks Dad !! I love you!! I know that the nagging you guys gave me is all for my own good.. I knew it and I understand it.. Anyway! Mum, Dad ! Do take good care of yourself back in Sibu and hope to see you guys soon !! I LOVE YOU !! MUAKZZZ HUGSSS

Appreciation

Been back to Sibu for roughly few weeks or month plus time and yet now I am almost time to leave this warm and lovely place and heading toward the reality place which everything have to be done by myself and life start with studies and most probably with work as well.. This coming semesters will be tougher than before as the final year project is approaching towards me and I have to look for the placement for my work experience in order to graduate next year ! yea.. I am going to graduate in one and a half year time!

Alright.. this year I am the one who keep sending friends off to airport and that make my days down especially when I think of I might not be able to come back for long period of time, I started to miss them especially you guys.. You know who you are.. The last one I send off should be one of my bestie, fie to airport today.. He is a good friend of mine and he is really good.. always help whenever you need help, just call him and whenever he can he will do it for me.. How nice he is.. He been accompany for quite long time especially when I am a nanny back in Kuching last week.. Helping me to fetch my dad from airport to the hotel and to the airport again.. keep me accompany every night at my sister place so that I won't be bored when I am over there after the kids fall asleep.. Bring me here and there and whenever I need help from him, he will be there for me! Thanks Alfie !!

Oh well guys, dun feel jealous or anything if I didn't mention you here, just that not the right time yet.. Haha.. One day you might appear in here as well.. Haha..



Alright, by using my blog, I would like to give a big THANKS to most of my friends esp ALFIE LIM AH BENG who really be a very good company of mine while I am in Kuching and Sibu.. Thanks for fetching me from airport, going here and there with me, be a good friend of mine, and lots of things .. Thanks Alfie !! Kam Sia lu !

Apart from that, Thanks to all of my friend who had been going out, keep me accompany, entertainment me and help me all this while back in Sibu and for sure Kuching! Thanks Guys ! I had a memorable and good trip back this time and a nice and enjoyable trip to Kuching! Some of you, see you soon back in Melbourne, Some of you, see you soon in LCCT if you coming to visit me this Sunday, Some of you, hope to see you guys real soon as I have no idea when will I be back to Sibu and Kuching after this ! Oh well, there's few more days, roughly 4 or 5 days for those still in Sibu to see me.. haha..

Both Hilux and Innova !

Valentine's Day 情人节

Oh yea ! it's 14th of February now! The special day for most of the couple! The day which celebrating love and affection between intimate companion ! Confectionery, Flowers Bouquet, Bears are the most common things that you will see at this period of time..

Well, till now just I know that the valentine's at Kch is different with Sibu. There are lots of stall setting up at all the roadside selling the flowers, bears and different kinds of Valentine's Gift.. You can see it everywhere no matter which area!! Lots of them and there's quite number of choices and the quality seem to be not too bad..

My 2nd alone Valentine's after that incident happened.. ahaha.. Seem like not too bad ! How my Valentine's going ? Busy for whole day and spending the night time with my little handsome at home and see him to sleep.. After that there's 3 guys spending the Valentine's time with me until my bro in law is back home and we went out to LOK LOK to celebrate our belated Valentine's Day ! haha.. Thanks Alfie, Henry and Henry's bro !

Single can have some different Valentine's Day celebration but still love the way celebrate it with someone special
Let's see if I will be having single Valentine's next year or different one ! haha..

Anyway ! Happy Valentine's Day to all the couple and the singles too !!

Kuching Nanny Trip

Still staying in Kuching now.. Been here since last Sunday and it's almost a week time..
Was fooling around 1st few days and the real nanny trip started like 3 days ago and start to do all the house chores and taking care of that 2 naughty kids and gonna see them to sleep sometimes especially when they are not willing to sleep..

Started to fetch the kids back from Taska and school, start to wash the clothes and hang them out there.. But then, when they are in their taska or school, that's my free time, from morning around 9 to 4 in the afternoon as going to prepare the dinner for them.. How I spend my free time? I am following my bro in law for breakfast and following him around while he needs to pick up stock and send them to his customers.. Btw ! Thanks my bro in law that I dun have to send the kids to their taska in the morning.. Just have to pick them up in the evening..

Night time will be hard time for me sometimes as need to check and get phina to do her homework and look after them.. Bath for the small one, Sheldon and the most tough time is when they dun wan to sleep while they need to and crying for mum when they wake up in the middle of night.. Thanks God for that they are all sleeping well this few nights.. Praying for all the time peace for them..

Sometimes, the kids are annoying are terrible but when they becoming a good boy or girl, it's a nice things and enjoyable things to taking care of them.. They are funny sometimes and sometimes they will confused you and make you angry like hell..

As Conclusion, I am quite enjoying that ! Wishing the days coming on will be good and great for taking care of those 2 naughty kids !

Thanks to those who keep me accompany every night ! ESP ALFIE LIM AH BENG !! KAM XIA LU

Having fun at Boulevard

St Paul ! School of Phina

Hotel 360

Nice Bak Kut Teh ! Thick herbal flavour

Nice Teh C Special

我的生日！

大家好！！今年我的生日坐落在农历新年的除夕！
先在这里和我的朋友们说声谢谢！也谢谢我的家人！
今年我的生日算是特别的！一切从我在生日前夕开始说起
由于那时是新年前夕，我必须要把家中的3架车打蜡洗干净，所以生日前夕就在家打蜡了大架的车，花了一整个下午在和姐夫一起打蜡
之后就驾去洗，可怜的是我在那里等了3个多小时，车才洗好！！
在这之间，一群墨尔本青团的人，本来以为我会去游泳，所以在游泳池等我！谁知那天我没时间去，他们白等了，最后骗了我，问我在哪里，一群人就这样到了我等待车洗好的咖啡店帮我庆生！有点不好意思啊！但是还是很谢谢他们！很有心！让我在等待的3个小时你增添了乐趣！

晚上就和家人一起去CafeCafe享用晚餐！谢谢大姐夫请我们吃了晚餐！很丰盛很好吃的晚餐。喜欢一家人在一起享用晚餐的感觉！
之后就和好朋友去喝茶了，他们连同家人骗了我去ＲＨ酒店，原来我老姐们在那里定了一间房间给我惊喜！不是什么很特别的，只是骗我去到房间给我一个惊喜而已，但是那天晚上我就住在那里～哈哈！和alfie还有ridge!
好戏还在后头，载了Catherine回家后，就被他们俩拉到Ｑｂａｒ去灌酒！被他们弄醉了！那天晚上的我像疯人一样，一直自己笑！

总而言之！我今年的生日特别！哈哈！谢谢大家！！

忙碌的街道

新年前夕，是诗巫最热闹的时候。街道上车水马龙,到处都是车。
今天早上出去了，去了一整天，大多数时间都在车上，塞车，找车位
自己起先想去剪剪头发，但是完全找不到车位！结果放弃了，多谢阿祥的女朋友，依玲最后在她的家帮我剪了，还帮我染了头发，新的一年新的发型！不一样的我！唯一不变的就是身材一直在加一码！
还好老妈没骂或不开心！哈哈，我自己还蛮喜欢这个发型的！哈哈
总而言之！新年前夕千万不要驾手排的车出去！如果能！摩托车最好！
新年快乐了大家！